In a Perfect World I would tell you how amazing the past two weeks of my journey have been.
In a Perfect World I would tell you how much time I put into working out and how I really love it!
In a Perfect World I would share how easy it has been to transition into a lifestyle that is opposite of the fast paced, drive thru friendly, artery clogging one I was living in.
In a Perfect World I would have lost 2 lbs last week and not gained them.
THIS isn’t a perfect world and neither am I. I really struggled with myself, my thoughts and my will these past two weeks. I KNOW I want to lose this weight and I have been working on it BUT ITS HARD! My heart wants it but my body is slow and LAZY! I know I wrote this in an earlier blog. I guess I just thought if I confessed my laziness I would be free from it…that didn’t happen. There isn’t a get out of jail free card here. I know I have been lazy to work out because the excuses have started; I have either been too busy or really tired. Isn’t it ironic? Those are the two things that got me HERE in the first place! So I am a little frustrated with myself!
This isn’t a perfect world and neither am I. I have a problem with time management. My problem is I don’t know how to manage it! Sometimes I complain and wonder why there aren’t more hours in a day. But if you think about it we would just add MORE stuff to those extra hours. I have come to recognize I need to create a realistic workout schedule that allows me to take care of my home, my duties at work as well as work in ministry. When everything is mixed together it all seems like too much and I get distracted and overwhelmed.
This isn’t a perfect world and neither am I. I gained 2 lbs last weigh in and that has been discouraging. I know there are reasons behind weight gain: Working out builds muscle, “that time” of the month, etc. But I think I can honestly say this weight gain was none of that. I saw all the support on Facebook when I wrote about my weight gain and I felt bad as I thought about it because I would know when it’s the muscle, but I haven’t worked out enough to have that type of weight gain. I worked out 1 time last week and it wasn’t “that time of the month.” HONESTLY, I just didn’t try hard enough. I felt discouraged. I was “tired.” I didn’t fight for a weight loss the way I should have. Please know, I have not fallen off the wagon and have resorted to binge eating, I am eating well. I like healthy food and the feeling I get when I make healthy choices. I just haven’t been as intentional as I know I could be. That makes me so mad at myself!
This isn’t a Perfect World and neither am I. This past weekend I had the honor of visiting friends in Michigan as I was had meetings and did some work over there. On Sunday I woke up at 6am and could not get back to sleep so I decided to walk out to their dock and just sit and be quiet before God. It was there that I began to pray for you! Yes you! I was praying that you would be strengthened to continue your journey because as I have said it is HARD! It was at that time I realized why it has been so hard. I have been sidetracked by ME! I have had the audacity to believe that I am smarter and stronger than God when it comes to my weight loss. LORD have mercy! I started strong in my faith and I have moved forward but these past 2 weeks or so I have recognized that when life has been too busy or too much I take it into my own hands. So I sat before God humbled as I cried and asked for his forgiveness. I know this, WSWE, me and you ALL belong to him. I have to take this to HIM daily because HE is that mighty and I AM NOT! I cannot do this on my own and shame on me for thinking I could.
This isn’t a Perfect world and neither am I BUT GOD is! If you are discouraged please take time to go before our maker. This journey isn’t just physical….it’s spiritual. I want my body to reflect what is happening in my Spirit….True transformation. Know that I am praying for your freedom as I pray for mine! We aren’t perfect but HIS LOVE IS!!
Be encouraged today…We can do this…The best is yet to come!
Madelynn
“Then you will know the truth, and the truth shall set you free.” John 8:32
You are certainly not alone in your struggle, two steps forward, one step back, loss of motivation…etc. I love how you put it though: we are not perfect but God is & we have to take it to Him daily. You will bounce back & persevere, especially with His help!
Thank you for this Marcia! I really need to work on replying to comments sooner! Thank you so much for your words of encouragement! So good hearing from you!
Hey Mad, I totally understand how you feel. This wasn’t a perfect week for me either. My first week I was totally focused on relying on God’s strength when I was weak. When I felt weak I called out to Him to help me put the spoon down or take another step in my walk when I wanted to rest, in that 1st week I lost 4 lbs. But this past week I took Him for granted, I was partially focused. I know He is always with me but I wasn’t as intentional to call out to Him when I was weak. No surprise, I wasn’t as successful as week one, I lost 1lb. Don’t be discourage Mad remember that, “the number on the scale is only a reflection of what your body weighs not of who You Are”. You have inspired women, like me, with your candidnace to begin their own journey and not just about the physical benefit but the God glorify journey. The weight lose is a perk, growing closer to God through this journey and surrendering it to Him is the prize. “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9. We are all weak and need Him, I am glad we can reflect and be honest with ourselves, this journey will be a testimony to His greatness. Love you
Hi Beautiful….
I agree when you say that we put ourselves in HIS hands… A funny thing happened tonight at the gym… I am continuously asking God to give me the strength, to show a sign that I can and WILL take off the weight and keep it of… Well, mom and I decided to go to the XSports Fitness in Downers Grove, it was recommended to us by a guy at Trader Joe’s…. As we are finishing up our 30 mins on the treadmill and young lady passes by us with a shirt and it had Phillipians 4:13 on front and on back the entire verse and on top in the back it had 3:16… I was like WOA… “Mas claro no canta el gallo!” Lol
Gog paid the ultimate sacrifice for us… so the sacrifice we are making to make our bodies healthier will never compare… and the same strength that Christ had to stay on that cross due to his Love for us… that is the same strength that will carry us to our goal…
Yesterday was a day I did NOT want to go to the gym… I had to battle my self to change and go to the gym…
It’s an everyday battle, Pero Dios no nos ha traido hasta aqui para volver atras…
Seetel, I believe in you, because of you I have accomplished the little that I have…
Praying for you and for all of who’ve joined #WSWE!!!
WE CAN DO THIS!!!!
Love ya! <3