What Size Was Eve has been up and running about 2 ½ months now. I cannot believe how fast this time has gone. When I launched in May, I didn’t know what to expect as far as the blog or Facebook is concerned BUT I really thought I would have lost more weight by now. This has been a slow process for me. I assumed because I was making this weight loss public the pounds would shed off. WELL, that was a lie!
The past couple months have been a consistent weight loss struggle. I fight myself to wake up early, eat right, cook well and work out. Working out is not my favorite thing to do especially when everything in my life seems to be moving 100 mph and my days are filled from the time I wake up until the time I go to sleep. However, this past Friday I recognized something that sets this journey apart from my past weight escapades. I haven’t given up! I have been trying to lose weight for about 2 ½ months now, that’s the longest I have gone. I have had a couple times where I have become so discouraged I wanted to throw the towel in but I haven’t. What I have learned this time around is how to get up faster, that has been key! Usually I would be on a health kick for about 2-3 weeks and then because of my schedule or something I back track which leaves me discouraged so I give up all together! Currently, I find that if I stumble, I become emotional; I recognize it and in a couple days or sometimes just a few hours later find myself working out and going full force again. Has this pattern held me back from losing the weight I have wanted? Yes. Have the times of discouragement lessened? Yes. Do I get up and dust myself off faster? YES! God has given me the strength to remain faithful not only to HIM but to myself!
I have had some very difficult emotional seasons where I beat myself up and throw an internal “fat-tantrum” that can last for a long period of time without my doing anything to change it physically or emotionally. Just a couple weeks ago I felt like I was in a slump. I was tired and was having trouble sleeping so I woke up at 4 am sensing the need to read my bible. I turned to the book of Philippians and the verse that flew out and all but slapped me in the face was Philippians 1:6 “For I am confident of this very thing, that HE who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.” This is one of those verses that you hear often but this time I BELIEVED it! HE has started something great and has entrusted me with it! HE will perfect what HE has started!! It’s a promise. After reading that verse it was almost as if something new was placed in me. I haven’t been perfect but I haven’t been the same!
With a new found joy in the Lord and promise from him, I believe God is blessing me with an opportunity I would NEVER, EVER have imagined! As of last Thursday I am training with David Diaz, a former WBC Lightweight World Champion, a four-time U.S. National Amateur Champion and a 1996 U.S. Olympian. For those of you who need translating (I did) he is a retired boxer…a REAL boxer. Like, he went to the Olympics real!!! This is so cool!
I have had the privilege of attending church with the Diaz family; they are a beautiful family and are absolutely hilarious. Last week when I posted the horrible videos of my lack of boxing skills I thought it would be funny to get David to watch them. Then I thought about how much I enjoyed boxing and considered writing to him. BUT WHO AM I? This man is the REAL DEAL, he could definitely say no, ESPECIALLY after my video AND if he did say yes, can I really box? Well, after talking to him and his beautiful wife I met him at the gym on Thursday and yesterday and I have survived to tell my story! I will be training with him about 3-4 times a week and I fully believe God allowed our paths to cross for such a time as this!
THIS my friends, is why getting up and dusting yourself off faster is important! I would not have believed or even considered boxing if I was still allowing myself the time to sulk in a “Fat-tantrum”. BUT, because I recognized and stopped the tantrum I have the opportunity to change my life with an athlete who has a heart to serve others and is skilled and talented beyond belief. What a divine opportunity!
If you find yourself unmotivated and throwing a tantrum in your heart, take time out today and ask God to help you get up! You never know what blessing you may miss out on. May God give you the strength to dust yourself off and bless you with your very own divine opportunity! Look for it… It’s probably closer than you think! My opportunity was in the pew behind me!
Be encouraged today…We can do this…The best is yet to come!
Madelynn
“Then you will know the truth, and the truth shall set you free.” John 8:32
