A couple of months ago my husband Donny (who is the most handsome man in all the land) hurt himself and decided to go to a local chiropractor. After a couple of successful sessions Donny convinced me to schedule an appointment. I had some pain but nothing major so I thought I’d check it out. I went in for an initial consultation and it turned out I was definitely in need of an alignment as my X-ray showed some complications. I didn’t let myself get too preoccupied though, because after all I was there for a couple visits, I didn’t need too much work done. One month after my initial appointment I started to realize my back was feeling a little better and my neck was experiencing some serious relief. During one of my sessions I turned to Dr. Walter and said “You know it sure seems like I was in worse condition than I thought.” Dr. Walter was so gracious when he turned to me and said “You’re in worse shape than Donny!” I laughed because his honesty was not malicious but boy was he serious! I honestly didn’t think I needed the chiropractor, Donny was the one that hurt himself. It was at that moment I realized something… For years I was walking around with back and neck pain, pain that I learned to live with. It was there and it became a part of me. I didn’t know how bad the pain was until I experienced relief from a much needed adjustment.
In 2013 when I initially started this blog I believed that I would lose all my weight because going public with this journey would make me accountable. So I did all I possibly could to lose weight. I ate well. I worked out. I woke up early. I went to sleep early. I ate less carbs. I ate more protein. I didn’t eat after 6:00. I followed every kind of diet/eating plan there is. I lost weight only to eventually gain it back and then some. Ugh that feeling of defeat was enough to drive anyone crazy!
In the past two years I have had the opportunity to work from home. During this time I have learned a lot about myself. In the past six months I have learned more and the past month has been an amazing journey to freedom. I have invited God into some vulnerable places in my life and heart. We will talk about a lot of those specific moments in the next couple weeks/months. You see, for years I have walked around in emotional pain and I became so accustomed to carrying these negative emotions, thoughts and lies around for so long they became a part of me. I couldn’t even distinguish the difference between what my mind thought was true as opposed to what was a lie. What’s even crazier is some of the lies were spoken over me years ago by people who love me and other lies I have spoken over myself. Lies like “You just have to shut your mouth and stop eating,” or “You’re a big girl and you’re always going to be a big girl!” Some of the lies I’ve believed were spoken over me at such a young age I really thought they were true. Not only that but there have been traumatic experiences that have occurred that have been pushed down so deep I myself didn’t realize I was still carrying them around. There were conversations, events and life circumstances that I believed had nothing to do with my weight issues and yet they had everything to do with my weight issues. When I realized this I couldn’t do anything else but cry until my heart was healed. Some of you know exactly what I mean…You have had so much happen, we call it “Life.” I am here to tell you it’s so much more than that. If you have been taken advantage of, if you have had toxic relationships, perhaps you’re the child of an alcoholic, or your family is dysfunctional, maybe you haven’t been able to forgive yourself for something or maybe you were bullied and those lies have been etched in your heart. Girlfriend, or boyfriend, I am here to tell you the LIES have to stop and not only do they have to stop its time to stop cooperating with them. My dear, you were not born to carry burdens that Jesus chose to carry for us. You were not born to walk around with the weight of the world on your shoulders. You were not born to let lies take hold of your heart. You are NOT lazy, fat, worthless, ugly, stupid, weak, too loud, too strong, don’t belong, obnoxious, and whatever else was spoken over you!
You have been called according to HIS purpose. (Romans 8:28)
HE loves you with an everlasting LOVE (Jeremiah 31:3)
You have been remarkably and wonderfully made (Psalm 139)
You are blameless in HIS sight (Ephesians 1:4)
For those of you who are new here you must be wondering “I thought this blog was about weight loss?” Well, it is. I’ve just learned that for some of us this weight is about more than the food we eat but the burdens we have carried. We’ve lived with the words and burdens for so long we didn’t realize they became a part of us. Today I am going to tell you what Donny told me “You should schedule an appointment.” But your appointment isn’t with a chiropractor….its with Jesus. It’s time for an adjustment. Its time to expose the lies, address the trauma, the pain and adjust our thinking, extend grace to and speak life over yourself! Diets work for now but healing lasts forever. I believe as I am released emotionally my body will be released physically.
With all that said, I hope you will join me. Please know I am praying for you! If anything here resonated with you and you’d like to reach out privately please feel free to contact me. There is a tab located on the homepage where you can connect with me. If you know someone who you believe would benefit from this blog please be kind enough to share this.
Lastly, if you are new to the What Size Was Eve Community thank you for joining me. If you have been here for a while THANK YOU for sticking around. I am going to add a couple new things to this site. I hope you find this blog to be a blessing and of great encouragement. I look forward to hearing of all God will do in and through you as you schedule your adjustments!
I love you already!
The BEST is yet to come!
John 8:32 “…Then you will know the TRUTH and the TRUTH will set you FREE!”
Madelynn!!! I am so glad wswe is back!! ( I set an alarm in my phone for your comeback today. 😬) Love you 😘
THANK YOU! OMG…This just blessed my heart!
It’s great to have you back ! Your blogs are so interesting and inspiring!
LUDIE!!!! Its so great to be back and its even better to have my special ladies from before here! THANK YOU! I hope you are well and blessed!
This is so amazing.. Wow this really spoke to me.. I’m so happy and excited to join you on this journey!! It’s timr for major adjustments
Thank you So much Marisol. I am grateful it spoke to you…I pray God meet you in new ways! I am excited for all HE has in store for you!
I’m a newbie to your blog. New to blogging.
Loved reading your blog. Made me think, Jesus loves me inside, and out. I was BORN FLAWLESS, thanks to my creator and King.
Thank you, Barbara
Thank you so much for coming by, I am so happy you are here! God loves us so much, I have to remind myself of that constantly. His love is beautiful.
Love this blog. This has spoke to my heart. God is the healer. Thank you for the reminder and encouragement
Oh Cindy! I can’t tell you how happy you have made me. Thank you for reading my post and I am so glad you recognize Christ as our healer! Thank you!
So proud of you! This is awesome. Love you 😘
THANK YOU! Love you!
Wow …I can’t stop crying. I believe everything you said is so true.. I’m super excited to see how God is going to move in many of our lives…❤️
Tears water our breakthroughs… giving myself permission to cry has been so important to my healing. We got this girlfriend. You aren’t alone!
I’m so proud of you Mads .. This piece goes with Josue’s testimony for next week’s Baptism Tuesday.. when you hear it, You’ll know… This really touched my soul! Thanks for allowing yourself to be used by the Spirit! I LOVE YOU! Can’t wait to see what’s to come with WSWE!
Amen! Thank you Glenda! I look forward to Josue’s Baptism. God is doing so many great things! I am excited for you!
Madelynn! I’m so excited to join you on this journey.
It’s so crazy how God works, I love it! For the last few weeks I’ve been mentally preparing myself to start dieting. Today was day one, and this just spoke so much truth to what I’ve been going through. It is definitely time for a few adjustments!!!!!!!! Xoxo ❤️❤️❤️
WOW! AMEN! Thats wonderful. I really do believe that weight loss starts from the inside out… Praying for you girlie!
Amazing and so much truth!!!! God is good!! I’m excited for your journey and I’m blessed to hear everything about it though your blog. Love you 😘
Awww! Thanks for reading my blog! I appreciate it! Love you!!!!!!
Maddy just today on my way home from work I said a simple prayer. I said “God I don’t want to just hear Truth and say wow that was good. I want to hear Truth and have it break something inside me I didn’t realize was there. And here you speak on that very thing. And guess what? My heart broke. The tears ran hot and I made an my appointment for an adjustment. So much needs to be assessed, but we know the great physician. I going after my total healing. Love you. Thank you for saying Yes to this new season of WSWE.
I cannot even tell you how your reply has blessed me and has encouraged me to continue to share the hard things. Thank you so much for sharing this with me. I am so proud of you and look forward to all God has in store.
You are a gift my friend. This spoke to me greatly. I’m excited for this!
Amen! THANK YOU! I appreciate it. There’s a lot more to come!
WOWOWOW love this so stinkin much! So proud of you Mads!! Your vulnerability and bravery to seek the depths of Jesus heart is inspiring!!
Thank you So much! Jesus has done so much in me, keeping it to myself would be selfish! Its time! <3
Powerful and tender, I can’t wait to see what our Jesus is going to do! My eyes are tearing up….
Oh Anne! Your name is all over this and you have no clue! Thank you. You are an amazing woman!
Thank you for being so vulnerable and real and hitting us with truth! Appreciate you!
Thank you for your support and for swinging by! XOXO
So today my dad went into the hospital again because he couldn’t breathe. I almost couldn’t feel bad because he keeps smoking ! I was ready to give it to him about this addiction when the Lord reminded me about my affair with sugar. I started thinking about that as an addiction too. It gave me time to think about what is not sweet in my life and allowed me to honestly work thru some of those emotions and cast them on Jesus. I was able to go from an angry judgemental place to a place of understanding why he soothes himself with cigarettes. We all have beliefs and not all of them are true but what is true that Jesus is the way, the truth and The Life. He knows us and loves us and will bring truth and walk with us. He’s so gentle and never condemns. So if you feel condemned, it’s not His voice. Hopefully it’s not yours doing the condemning. The devil doesn’t need any help!
You better PREACH Judy. While I am so sorry to hear about your father I am so glad your perspective shifted and you were able to give grace. Isn’t it funny how grace for someone else even makes us feel better. God is so good! Thank you for your honesty and for being you! THANK YOU!
I have been on a journey for the last 6 months where God has been revealing that I must surrender and trust Him with all aspects of my life. So that God and only God orders my steps and I keep my eyes and heart towards Him. I have learned in an intimate way to trust that He knows what He is doing, I simply have to surrender and trust His word. Your blog echoed that message to me again, nothing to do with weight loss, yet everything to do with trusting Him through my process. Love you sister!
Thank you so much for sharing. Surrender, trust, faith all go hand in hand. I am grateful for what the Lord has been showing you…He’s a Good, Good Father!
This is so very inspiring! I’ve been the big girl my entire life. Last November I was diagnosed with a thyroid condition that caused me to evaluate what I was putting in my body. I have slowly eliminated certain foods, but still have a long way to go. Thank you for your willingness to share your story! Thank your for your obedience to God’s calling and thank you for inspiring! I followed you before and your videos would crack me up! Can’t wait to rock this journey with you!!!
Tycora! Thank you so much for sharing about your journey. I appreciate your being here and still following me after these years. And dont even worry the videos are coming back! LOL!
Wow! So powerful and beautiful!
Jesus is our healer!!
Thank you for your heart.
Thank you Carly! He truly is our healer!
Giiiirrrrrrllllllll! I am here for this journey. I’m so excited for you and I can’t wait to learn and change with you. Keep on keeping on.
Giiiiiiirrrrllllll! I am so glad you’re here! Thanks…I look forward to whats in store for us!
I loved this! Made me cry. It spoke to my heart. ❤️❤️
Amen… Thank you Fernanda! <3