2014 has started off on the right foot. I decided it is imperative to change my eating habits and make some sacrifices with what I allow in my body. It hasn’t been as hard as I thought it would be, but I have recognized that a change in my eating is a very wise decision and has been much needed.
So what am I doing differently? Glad you asked J I have cut sugar and carbs out of my daily eating. I can hear David, my boxing coach, saying “It’s about time. I’ve been telling you that!” Yes he has been challenging me to cut sugar and carbs since I started training with him. In my defense I did cut some things, sometimes, and it just wasn’t enough. Not enough to change my life and still comfortable enough to find a sweet in my hand now and again!
I have not had a real desert in two weeks and I haven’t died! I’m so glad I’ve lived to tell my story. Actually, without the sugar and carbs I am feeling much better. I had some crazy withdraw moments on my third day but I am all good now. I have energy and for the first time in a while feel like I am controlling what I eat as opposed to allowing what I eat to control me. I will admit there are things I want to eat. For instance today I wanted a donut, whereas before I would leave work and get coffee and a donut I thought about why I wanted it…I realized it was because it was lunch time and I was hungry. So I went to the lunchroom to eat and OF COURSE OF ALL DAYS there was a Dunkin Donuts bag in there with munchkins. I just quickly grabbed the bag and placed it in a corner on the floor of the lunchroom; I ate my lunch and was satisfied without even thinking about the donut again. TODAY I took back a little more control! Yesterday, I wanted to eat everything on every take out menu in Chicago, why? Because it was dinner and my body was telling me it was hungry and I still hadn’t eaten. SO, I ate a dinner that was sensible and what I should eat and I took back a little more control. Tonight I wanted the biggest Coke I could physically chug down…I am drinking water from my 32 oz. water bottle instead and again, I took back a little more control.
When I say I’m taking back control please know I am not controlling nor do I believe this is something I can do in my own strength. I acknowledge this strength is coming from Jesus. My eyes are opening and I have become more sensitive in gauging the condition of my heart when it comes to food and my life. I literally feel like I’ve been given another chance at this journey and this time I recognize with help from God, self control is key. I’ve recognized my body is a mere condition of my heart and I have tried so hard to cover my up the lack of self control with pretty dresses and earrings…but ultimately, I’m not exactly where God wants me. FINALLY I am beginning to see and call it as it is. THIS, THIS my friends is HARD to confess, however I say it because I know many of you reading may feel the same way and you don’t know how to overcome this battle. So here I am taking the first step through confession…I have lacked control, I haven’t always chosen the best foods, I wasn’t even ready to truly acknowledge this as a deep heart condition as it’s easier to find other excuses to blame weight gain and defeat on. However, today is different. I accept God is changing me from the inside out and is giving me the strength to see this through. With that said, I am taking back a little more control.
Do it….Ask God to help you take control back. Confess whatever is stopping you from being who HE is calling you to be. Freedom is just around the corner.
Be encouraged today…We can do this…The best is yet to come!
Madelynn
“Then you will know the truth, and the truth shall set you free.” John 8:32
